Sunday, February 6, 2011

Counting my blessings this morning...



Everyone in the house has had a head cold for the past week. Yesterday, Carter was sleepy, nauseated and had a headache. He still played and laughed. He just wasn't himself. Before he went to bed, he told me that he felt like he was going to be sick. Since he had told me this on and off all day I figured he was just feeling nauseated. I gave him a bowl to sleep with, just in case.

It was 10:30 pm. Everyone in the house was asleep except for me. I had just got done washing my face and brushing my teeth. I sat down at the computer to check my email before I went to bed for the night.

Carter walked out with his bowl upside down and said he was going to be sick. I told him to turn his bowl over as I walked to him. As I turned the bowl over he got sick. I sat at the table with him. We sat there for a few minutes and I felt a tug to yell for Brian. I told myself that was silly because I always deal with sick kids at night! I felt that tug again. "Just holler for him". So I did. He came out and got Carter a glass of water and was trying to wake up. He sat across the table from us.

At this point, I was laughing and telling Brian about Carter almost missing the bowl and Carter slid off my lap onto the floor. I was still talking to Brian and Carter stood up beside me. He threw up into his bowl again. I asked him if he wanted a drink and he said no and climbed back up on my lap.

Then he slid down again. I thought he was over exaggerating how yucky he felt. I asked him what he was doing and he didn't answer me. I asked Brian if he was doing this on purpose. He just shrugged his shoulders.

Carter stood up for a second time and I asked him if he was ok. He said twice, "I'm okay mommy" and climbed back onto my lap. The way he said that made me realize that something was not right. The instant I realized he went completely limp. His head fell to the side and his eyes rolled back into his head. I grabbed a hold of him and shook him. He turned pale and then blue. He stopped breathing. Every ounce of my being thought he was dying right there in my arms.

I screamed to call 911. Brian stood up and I handed Carter to him, grabbed my phone and called 911. Brian ran into the sun room (its cooler) and layed him down. At this point he was still blue but his chest was rising.

What seemed like an eternity later, Carter blinked. Brian was trying to keep talking to him and asked him what he was thinking. He said "Im wondering if I am going to live or die".

He was shaking because he was so cold and Brian asked him if he was ok. His response was "I'm just shaking because I'm cold. Don't tell mommy because she will be scared that I am shaking".

Can you believe that? He is so scared but he is worrying about me.

By the time the ambulance arrived he was talking but very scared.

The hospital did blood work and a urine test. Everything was normal. The doctor told us that she thought he has a seizure. It didn't make sense to me. I know families that have children with seizures and that just didn't fit.

We ended up staying the night and this morning a new doctor came in to discharge us. I asked him what he thought and he asked me to explain to him exactly what happened. He said that from what the previous doctor said and everything I told him, he thought it was something called vasovagal syncope.

This is a definition I grabbed off google.
Short of fainting a person may experience an almost undescribable weak and tired feeling resulting from a lack of oxygen to the brain due to a sudden drop in blood pressure. Tabor's describes this as the "feeling of impending death" caused by expansion of the aorta, drawing blood from the head and upper body.

Tomorrow morning I am going to call our family doctor and have him check Carter out. Although this does seem to be what happened I need more reassurance.

This is something that will probably be reoccurring. I know God doesn't give you more than you can handle but today I feel like He is getting awfully close.

I have never been so scared in my life. I am petrified of it happening again. If it does happen we are to lay him flat on the floor so that gravity doesn't work again him. Once he is lying flat the blood can reach his brain easier.

There are many things that can cause this to happen. In Carters case it was just that he was sick. There are dozens of triggers. That doesn't mean that all of them will trigger this in Carter but it is possible.

Forgive me if I am all over all the place on this. I didn't sleep a wink. Anytime I would start to fall asleep, I jerked awake in a panic making sure he was still breathing.

I am so very thankful today. Thankful that I felt God telling me to wake up Brian, thankful that my girls are so brave, thankful for hearing another night of my little guy telling me he loves me and really, really hearing it as I lay with him in the hospital bed and he reaches for my hand, thankful that God protects, thankful that my little guy is so strong, thankful that I stayed somewhat calm and was able to react quickly, thankful that I have a husband that takes over when I'm scared to death, thankful that God has blessed me more than I deserve.


All I keep thinking is that maybe, just maybe, God was giving me a wake up call.

I'M AWAKE GOD!

9 comments :

Anita said...

Miranda, I am so glad to hear that he is doing ok now. How scary that must have been for all of you. Hope he feels better soon.

RI said...

WE had a similar thing happen to my nephew. They said he had a seizure because his body temp would rise and fall so fast. he was blue and stuff when he got to the hospital. The doctors said when he gets sick it is more likely to happen now. Which makes you so nervous when they get sick. Glad that he is doing good now and im sure everything will be okay. You know God doesnt give you more than you can handle so just keep your head up

Jess said...

Awww! I'm sorry y'all had to go through such a scary event! Praying for answers and much peace!!

Lynn said...

Wow! My granddaughter had a seizure when she was ill. And hasn't had one since but it is very, very scary. May you rest in your faith that is there with you, always.

Autumn said...

My heart just broke for you while I was reading that. I'm sorry you all went through that, that is so so scary. I'm so thankful Carter is doing better. I'll keep you guys in my prayers.

Miranda said...

Thanks to everyone for your prayers and concern. They have definitely been felt and appreciated!

knit1kids4 said...

Oh Miranda... that is so scary. My step son had a grand mal seizure at our house {his first}. It is a memory I will never forget.

Praying for peace for you. I'd say your dog had a sense!

Charity Anne said...

I wanted to leave a note about your strength and character. I don't even know you and I can see that your husband and you have great courage and faith. Believe me when I say I understand the complexities of life with a handicapped family member, only to discover yet another issue to cope with. I know the heaviness it brings at times. I am sorry that your family went through this. I want you to know that since stumbling upon your blog I have been praying for your family.

Miranda said...

Charity Anne, What a wonderful comment to wake up to! I really appreciate your comment and your prayers. :)

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